swedishturkey

ummmmmm.... yeah so i have a myspace and i always forget that i have an lj. so if ya'll have one too that would be sweet. oh and happy late bday to Cj. i swear i thought about you!!! but then i forgot ^_^ sorry. anyways this is my myspace. i actually check it all the time. http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=62944634 hope everyone is doing well. bye bye!

i guess it has been a while, but i really have a boring life. i've been working a lot, and all my free time is spent either watching tv or reading the harry potter books (i'm just now getting into them... its the most reading i've done ever which is probably really lame) i get every other weekend off so i can go visit tommy. i'll be up there for the next two weekends though because his parents will be out of town. and i'm pretty sure that's about it. oh and i got food poisoning last friday and it sucked hardcore balls. i'm just now getting back to eating normally. and last night i went to the beach for the first time in probably a year. we didnt go to the water and didnt even stay for an hour. then we went to a japanese steakhouse and all i could eat was a tiny bowl of miso soup. and i think thats been the highlight of my month... except for the fact that tommy got mad at me... i dont remember why. soooo... thats about it... yep.

ok.... i guess it's been a while since i've updated... i really have no idea what to talk about... so i guess thats it... i'm insanely boring

sorry

i'm still alive.......

well... my week was fun. i got to stay in my sister's apartment (and tommy actually decided to stay too) and it was really nice being able to keep the place clean and have no one else to blame if it wasnt... except the cats, but theyre too cute to yell at ^_^

so my days consisted of watching the muppet show and cooking dinner. doesnt sound too fun, but it was heaven to me!

but anyway, i work all this week so i dont know how much i'll have to write about. all boring work stuff probably... which i wouldnt waste my time on writing... let alone expect you guys to actually read it ^_^

well i love you all and miss you soooo much (those of you i see at least *_*)

ok later

just six more hours of work... then off for a week!!! its hard not to be happy!! then again i dont think it will be that much fun... especially if tommy doesnt stay with me. i really hope he changes his mind. if not then i can just play with kitties and watch movies all day! oh and eat goldfish.... lots of goldfish! mmmmm....

work today and tommorow and the next day.... then i'm off for a week!!!! i dont know if i'll have computer acess at my sister's place, but i'm sure i'll end up going to tommy's sometime so i'll update then.

work should be fun tonight... it shouldnt be too busy but there's 4 people scheduled tonight (shipment is today so hopefully they will take care of customers and i can put everything up)

i took my car in to get inspected yesterday, and i got a call this morning that its gonna cost $270 just to pass inspection. plus theres a ton of stuff that i will have to do in the near future. i'm beginning to think i should just get a new one... but i like not having payments! even if i did get another car it would still be at least five years old. i cant afford $200 payments a month to get a new one ^_^ but maybe this is my chance to look into getting my dream car (a 1997 mitsubishi eclipse for those of you who dont know)

ummm... i think thats about it. oh! yesterday was my son's 2nd birthday!!!! hes so cute... and furry ^_^ i'll try to get a recent picture of him. all the ones i have are from when he was little.

ok thats all for now. later

yay!!!! it's sooooo pretty!!! all my favorite colors all in one place... weeeeeeeeee!!!!

no really... i do....

anyway... read Cj's thingy... um novel.... yeah... tis good

and my day was good.  er... ok.  work was work. 

oh and before that i had a breakdown... no worries though, i just need to focus on things going on now rather than things that may or may not happen.

oh yeah... yes that is my pic... thats what i would look like on a regular basis if i cared enough. but i personally like waking up 15min before i have to leave for places.  that means more sleep and less grumpy ^_^ so anyways, its slightly misleading, but i dont really look good with clothes on anyway ^_^

 

I'm Content With Losing

Like i said; "leave your baggage at the back door."
Where i'm leaving you the way I think it should be.
We're always pulling into spaces (that we can't back out of)
Starting fights.
We cant talk our way out of this
(talk our way out of this)
Talk our way out of this.

How does it feel to be on the receiving end of this one?
Of this one?

Im half way there,
(and its all on me)
This is what i get for wanting more,
For wanting more.

This is the way its got to be.
Dancing on all these changes
So i walk around with this rope in my hand
(rope in my hand)
So i'll tie it around, and around and around.
I'll tie me down.

I'll fantisize of being manic and leaving us behind.
In your eyes, you were the one that tried.

Acceptance is what holds us here
Then you my dear are the one i fear tonight.
We'll try this one more time.

This is the moment that we all live for.
Are you ready?
Are you ready?

Im half way there,
(and its all on me)
This is what i get for wanting more,
For wanting more.

This is the way its got to be.
Dancing on all these changes
So i walk around with this rope in my hand
(rope in my hand)
So i'll tie it around, and around and around.
I'll tie me down.

You cant see past my waving hands.
(just running away again)
You cant see past my waving hands.
(good-bye)

(it gets so loud it hurts my ears.)

I wanna know how to get through this
(how to get through this)
Without choking up.
I wanna know how to get through this
(how to get through this)
Without choking up.
I cant feel you,
You're so far from me.

This is what I get for wanting more
This is what I get for wanting more
(and its all on me)
This is what I get for wanting more
This is what I get for wanting more
(and its all on me)
This is what I get for wanting more
This is what I get for wanting more
(and its all on me)

i did it!!! yay!!!!